Another Thing About Myself


By Jay Ayer

I have a love for entertaining people. Even though I am usually incredibly awkward and introverted, the one thing that brings me out of my shell is the chance to entertain someone.

Whether it be through comedy, magic tricks, or simple party tricks, I always feel a need to entertain the people around me in some way. It may not last long, but those few minutes where I both excite and intrigue people is a great ego boost.

This showmanship-like behavior is how I began friendships with many friends I have now, and it is a defining characteristic of who I am.

I don’t have much confidence in my daily life, and I can be nervous and anxious in basically any scenario, but the second I begin doing card tricks or reading people’s faces for party tricks I lose part of those nervous feelings, making me more sociable in the progress.

I have been to several parties where I have taken control of at least have the party for at least an hour because that’s how long I can entertain people.

I use my showmanship to help express myself and relax. I have a big problem with not connecting with people at large social events, but I can begin that connection by entertaining people.

The night of my freshman orientation consisted of me repeating card tricks for three hours for the orientation leaders until well past 2 a.m. The next day when our group was stuck inside during the rain, I found myself holding an impromptu magic show for a group of about 20 people while the weather cleared.

Not only did that experience help me make connections with individual people, I found that I had gained a small reputation as the guy who knew magic. I was able to start my freshman year here at UWF with most people already having a positive opinion of me.

Without my need to entertain people, I don’t know how I would have connected with people during parties or during my freshman orientation. I don’t know how I would have met some of my best friends, and I don’t know how I would have been able to connect with people as easily.


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